I’ve gotten so much better at realizing that if he is a cocaine dealer, he will not change for you. If you don’t like the way he acts in public, he will not change for you.
When he says “I’m just not in the right headspace to have a relationship” it means he is just not in the right headspace to have a relationship with me.
That a kind heart beats the best sex, the best humor, the best social status, the best body, the best everything else put together.
I have tried to live up to other people’s expectations in every single type of relationship in my life – instead of trying to find people that match mine.
Finally, I am ready for my heart to be loved the same way my heart loves.
When you think you find a good one,
and they follow “you’re so beautiful” with a facetime from one of the boys saying
“Yo, you sold all $500 and split the profit with me”?
Thank u, next.
I forgot all about the release of writing, the release in sharing.
Thank you for being here for me, even if you don’t listen.
I finally feel less lonely even though there isn’t a single person near me.
So, hey again.
This is my first blog post ever, and I am so excited. I just wanted to introduce who I am what I am trying to accomplish. Surprise I’m a human, and a human with so many things to say. I am a sophomore in college at Colorado College, and my growing up has really just started. That being said, in my stages of growing, I have had so many experience that make me cringe every time I think about them, some that make me sad, and some that make me happy. I am a firm believer that absolutely every human on Earth has all of these moments. From the beginning, I was a “thick” little 8 year old with a camo backpack, pins that said “GURLS ROCK”, chubby nips (chubby nips are my mother’s way of describing my excess baby fat making it look like I might have gone through puberty, but not quite.), my uniform collared shirt 100% tucked, hair parted right down the middle, an eye patch in all different colors and patterns, sports goggles, and two extra lips that came from my habit of constantly licking my chapped lips. Boy, I looked good let me tell you. For a little I was a cool kid, I was in the hospital, I had some good and bad friends, some good and some bad relationships, some ups some downs, and so much more. Now I have all of these stories that have made me who I am, and I could never regret one of them. I am here to share these pieces of me to make you laugh, maybe cry, or maybe 100% relate to. The thing is, what ever your reaction is, I can’t help it. I’m only human.